Jan 3rd

Ahhh. Its Sunday and I’ll be honest. My week sucked. Because of that, this weekly post will be extremely short.

Have a good one, may 2010 be a new year of learning for you guys.
-Steve

New Years Eve

I’m quite disappointed with myself. I’m slowly turning a monster… I’m going to find a way to trap him in the abyss and return to myself.

‘Tis the Season

It’s Christmas. Hooray. Today, I don’t get to celebrate it. Thanks mom, I enjoy your idea of “Saving money” for plane tickets to a dump place like Vietnam.
Happy Holidays, enjoy it.
-Steve

First time on Stage

Today was my first time performing in front of a LARGE audience. It felt like the best thing ever. I want to do it again sometime but not now, because (Australian accent) I’ve got blisters on meh fingers.

For the week of 12/14/09 – 12/14/09

In just one week, I’ve learn a lot. And I mean a lot of things. I learned to keep my mouth shut especially when it comes to talking about people. I hurt someone emotionally, and it was not a pleasant feeling. I couldn’t believe myself and the dishonor I bring towards myself. This person is someone I just met so it breaks my heart so see me breaking theirs. Speaking off topic from that small summary, I learned that certain people can’t be trusted. They play with your emotions and make you think things that you want to but is all but a dream. I can’t believe the gullibleness of myself. But unlike the majority, I learn from my mistakes. This is something I’ll be keeping in mind for future reference so save me some trouble. Next; people and their thoughts. I don’t know what other people think or how they feel, but I’m glad I’ve got people to learn off from, and people to save me from thinking bad things or acting bad. I made a new friend and it gives me a whole new perspective on the kind of person he is. See, this person is possibly “gay” or “bi.” I used to have bad feelings towards gays just because it’s unnatural. However, hanging out with people like him gave me a variety of thoughts and new attitudes toward him. I needed the experience and I needed to find out why everyone is judging people just because they seem to be “different” or out of the norms. I needed to learn to stop judging people on their shell as well because quite frankly, I’m not amused and happy with the way I’ve been trained to judge. Not only is he a really good friend, but he’s also my idol for his incredible voice. He’s a just a normal guy with different interests and view on things. Also, I don’t know if this is a stereotype but he does cheerleading, and all sorts of flippy stuff :] Haha. Well, in a previous post I posted that I wanted to take up singing. I started practicing singing a couple of days ago and now, my friend (mentioned in the first part of this post) wants me to write her a song for her birthday which just past. I feel kinda bad though, because the snow ruined her plans. But this Wednesday she’s expecting my voice. Which no one’s heard of (everyone heard me talk before, not sing lol) before. I’m actually pretty excited to sing this song because I already wrote it. I think it’s alright. But I know I’ll be nervous and shake and possibly have to use the bathroom multiple times from the nervousness. Kidding, but I know I’ll be nervous because that’s how I usually end up when I have to perform in front of people. Well, I hope I learn just as much and if not more in this next week. The post will certainly be up and I’m expecting great things this week. Merry Christmas to anyone, if anyone is out there reading this. May your journey’s be as exciting as mine.

-Steve

Recent Habits

So I’ve decided to take on singing. And also, learning sheet music for the piano. And also, learning to play the piano. But Guitar is still my baby. I’ve already made a song, Called “Twilight Soul” with lyrics and my own instructed music. Twilight meaning Light and Dark and Soul as in… your spiritual soul. The song is about a battle between the person, and his soul. He’s battling it out to escape the evil that he’s done in his past. We can see that he obviously see’s room for hope and views the light as good and thats what he’s aiming for. Lyrics and Song itself will be present when I get my band together. ^^

So I can’t decide…

My Career path is getting pretty narrow for me. Although I do realize that there are plenty of opportunities for me I’ve only debated between two. I want to either become a successful musician and teach at a school, or join the military as the toughest branch, the Marines. They’re both really nice choices, and also very different lifestyles. I hope I’ll be shown the right way.